I don’t know where to go, I don’t have anyone and I don’t like myself. The world doesn’t need me, my children would be better off without me.
I should be by myself.
Have you ever felt like this? I do, often. I struggle with these feelings almost daily. It hasn’t always been that way. Once I was a vibrant, confident person. I felt attractive, I liked myself and thought that I was making a good contribution to the world. Now, because of a whole lot of different circumstances over the last couple of years, I question everything and yet I know nothing. Will I ever get better? Will I ever recover from what ever is wrong with me? It seems like everything that I do is wrong and by opening my mouth I just upset people.
I keep going. Day by day writing on this blog in the hope that something that I did, something that I know will help someone else and maybe it will help me…sometime…in the future.